Too much time has passed...

I'm not really certain what to say at this point. So much has been going on and happening it would almost take way too long to catch up on everything. These last few months have been extremely hard for me and many months I don't think it is going to get any easier. I've experienced both life and death these last few months and I have to say life is so much more exciting and a lot easier to deal with. A couple of holidays have passed and those definitely were not easy or fun. We also celebrated our 1 year anniversary. If I would've known what all was going to happen in our first year of marriage on November 14, 2009... I promise you I would've taken a lot more time in our first year of marriage with one lady in particular. My precious Grandmother passed away September 28. My heart is still on the mend and I still struggle with it every single day. She was definitely a best friend and we were so close. I feel like a huge part of me is gone, and I'm still working through it. Our last phone call was the day I called to tell her my niece Chloe was born. She was so very excited, and I think about that phone call every single day. My cousin John was born November 2, 2010 and that was also hard because it was her 7th grandchild. Then came my niece Aubrey who is Grandma's first great-grandchild. So much emotion, but also soooooo much JOY. How can sadness, hurt, and pain exist with JOY too? It doesn't make sense sometimes, but they just do. It's so amazing how God works, and I promise you if it wasn't for these 3 sweet faces, getting through the passing of my Grandmother would be more painful than it already is. Through all of this it makes you so thankful for time spent. I told Payton tonight, that if there's one thing you can never get back it is time. We all have no idea when our last day on Earth is. Trust me. When you have someone taken from you so suddenly.. you gain a whole new perspective on your personal time... This means how you spend it, who you spend it with, and exactly how much of it is used getting closer to God and getting to know Him.
It's been hard to write lately, even this post is so hard to write. Hopefully we can get back in the groove of things and stay regular at blogging. I've got a lot of new recipes to try, a new oven to try them on, and one lady in Heaven I know watches and is so proud of whatever is cooked in my kitchen! :)

That's all for tonight. Hopefully back soon with some pictures and everything of what's been going on.
Sarah